I have never been so indecisive in my life. Seriously, I am confused as hell and change my mind every week about what I’m going to do with my life. I feel like I’m living in a confused state of limbo. And these are not simple decisions like if I should have the green tea or chai, it’s life changing stuff and perhaps that’s why I’m fluttering so much. I’ve even considered asking my Homeopath for a decisiveness remedy…. Wayne is that even possible?!? I’ve been trying to apply the Abraham principle of observing your emotions and following what feels good. But wow it seems my emotional state is still so dependent on external factors and that this is leading me down the wrong road, hence the constant mind-changing. I was reminded today about how important it is to live in the present and enjoy the now for what it is. And my present really is spectacular. I was also reminded that love is the basis of everything. My dilemma is should I leave South …
Lately I’ve been trying to focus on being present. It comes in fleeting moments but these tiny moments are increasing a little day by day, and it feels good. When I feel a glimmer of doubt or fear or uncertainty about the future slip in, I try to remind myself that it simply originates from past experience and has no effect on the future. I bring myself back to the now. Instead of focusing on externals, I’m trying to live in a feeling state, observing how I feel and floating in the direction of positive emotion. As Esther Hicks (Abraham teachings) would say, it’s about going downstream, flowing with the current instead of resisting and fighting your way upstream. It’s allowing the unfolding of your desires to happen naturally. So instead of trying to plan too far ahead, I’m letting my emotions guide me and listening to subtle clues from the universe on where I’m supposed to be and what I’m supposed to be doing. Let’s see where it leads me :-)
“If we see a child who is two or three, we find a free human. Why? Because this human does whatever he/she wants to do. The human is completely wild. Just like a flower, a tree, or an animal that has not been domesticated – wild! And if we observe two year olds, we find that most of the time these humans have a big smile on their face and they’re having fun. They are exploring the world. They are not afraid to play. They don’t worry about the past, don’t care about the future, and only live in the present moment. Very young children are not afraid to express what they feel. They are so loving that if they perceive love, they melt into love. They are not afraid to love at all. That is the description of a normal human being. Our normal human tendency is to enjoy life, to play, to explore, to be happy, and to love.” – don Miguel Ruiz (The Four Agreements)
It feels so good to just sit in meditation and actually feel your body relax completely. That feeling of letting go and surrendering into the moment. Just sitting, focusing on your breath with nothing else to do except be present. We carry around so much tension in our bodies, day in and day out, the least we can do is give ourselves 15 minutes a day to just let go. As we release tightness in the body, we release tightness in the mind. I reckon that’s something worth making time for.